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Embracing change

Oh life, it has such a funny way of adding its twists and turns to make things interesting, doesn’t it? With life comes evolution, change, and if you are lucky a ton of growth in this process. I feel like that latter has been a huge one for me lately. Growing and changing used to terrify me, I am talking ‘knock me off my feet and run for the hills’ type of fear, I didn’t like it and I rarely embraced it, I was a proud creature of habit. Since getting older and going through the life experiences and changes I have gone through, as well as being married to a guy who has always been a lover of change, I have learned to embrace and appreciate it; I approach situations differently in my heart and my mind, and I have been able to coach myself to find the value in change and to find the reward in peacefully adjusting to all of life’s new situations. As of lately, I even find myself looking for and craving change and evolution, maybe that’s a 30’s thing, go figure. Whatever the case, it’s been here and it’s been on my heart and mind for some time and I wanted to share it with those of you who have at some point felt the same way.

For me lately, that craving has been with this blog and my work with it. My website, my content, my social media posts, and my connection with my readers as you know has always been something I pride myself highly on. I have shared in the past that I have always wanted this blog to have meaning and purpose, not to just be a place where I tell you how cute off-the-shoulder tops are (I mean, they are but that is not currently the point). This blog over the last couple of years has become food for my soul, almost a form of therapy you could say. When I became a new mom, it gave me purpose, a place to share what I was learning and experiencing, and a place to connect with other moms who were feeling the same things I was and experiencing the same excitement and fear in the journey. It gave me a place to be creative, to take fun photos and style and share pretty outfits and home décor, it forced me to pull myself out of sweats and work out clothes every day and find and experiment with clothing styles and trends. But most of all, it gave me a purpose. Every day at Rajan’s naptime, this became my escape, I formed connections with the outside world and it often washed feelings of being tired and worn out away, because I always knew I was not alone. Somewhere over the last couple of months, I lost that connection, I lost inspiration, and I lost my purpose and reason for stopping by everyday to say hello. It became monotonous, and I let my head get too consumed with business and somewhere in that I tucked my heart and emotion away just to speed through every day with no place really to go. There were even days I could feel that in my personal life, I was having fun and enjoying time with my people, but my mind was racing and chasing something that half of the time I didn’t even know what it was. The downside of being a thinker is that you can often get lost in all of the thoughts consuming your mind, and you just do not stop and slow down; 10 times out of 10, that is my kryptonite.

I overthink, I worry, I consume myself with so much brain jumble that I have to force myself to take a step back and get to the root of what all of that means. My blog and content took a hit, and I was questioning if this was something I even wanted to continue. Maybe this was my sign to throw in the towel? Just put all of my effort into the car business and call it a day, there really wouldn’t be anything wrong with that, right? Wrong. To do that, I knew I would be giving up a piece of who I have become, this blog, my engagement, this is such a huge part of my life, it saved me when days were rough, and to give up on it would be like giving up a piece of my heart, that couldn’t be the answer. So what was it then? I had to take some time, some introspective psychological work, and figure out what I wanted this piece of my life to mean to me. Recently, after much discussion and open hearted conversations with good friends and my husband, I found it again, I found my reason to be here, and that was to get back to what I have always been in this space: an open book.

The money, the social media numbers, the comparisons, nothing and none of it has ever meant anything to me, truly. I would trade over and over again 500 photo likes on Instagram for 1 message from a reader who has shared with me how I impacted her day. That is why I stared this blog, that is who I am, and that is my purpose here. It is now time to reflect and find it within myself to produce the content my heart has been telling me to do all along, and to form connections with my readers that I always so constantly craved. My plan is to get back to the mom shares, the ups and the downs of parenting, and life as a 30-something-fashion-loving-shoe-connoisseur, and to get back to the days of being raw, honest, and 100% real. I will always share my fashion tips and finds, my beauty regimen, and kiddo goodies, but along with those things I will share my heart on my sleeve and strive every week to connect with you all in an effort to remind us all that we are not alone in this life.

I thank you for being here for me over the last 3 years, for sharing your own stories, for sending messages and comments, and engaging with me. Please continue to do so, I read every comment and every single word means the world to me, I can never even tell you how much truth there is in that. I value you, I appreciate you, and I promise to give you always the best of me. See, change and growth can be a good thing, am I right?

Embrace your change.

 

tee from H&M, old, similar here & here || jeans || sandals || earrings || necklace

7 Comments

  1. Cassydy
    June 15, 2017 / 10:28 pm

    I could write a bunch of words to describe how this post made me feel according to Shakespeare… “Brevoty is he soul of wit.” So I will just say that you make me proud. You inspire me. And I like that about you. Love your guts! More today that yesterday!

    • southcoaststyleoc
      Author
      June 19, 2017 / 10:51 pm

      You were my last push in writing this post, and for that I feel even more grateful to have you in my world than you will know. You bring out so much positivity in this world, and more recently in my life, and I just can not thank you enough for that. I have learned and evolved so much and a ton of that is thanks to you, I hope you always know how much I appreciate you. You are by far one of the greatest souls I know, and I am so thankful for our special bond and friendship we have, I look up to you SO much!!

  2. Cassydy
    June 15, 2017 / 10:29 pm

    And clearly one should proofread their messages before submitting them! (Insert eye roll here!)

  3. June 16, 2017 / 7:12 am

    Gosh this post speaks to me on so many levels! I am the same way with change- I don’t like it. At all. Give me a nice rut and I will stay forever. 🙂 But life is about change and there are so many changes coming to my life that it’s terrifying me! And I feel the same about my blog/ IG- that at times it has become sort of monotonous and having my son threw any spare time I had out the window!! But it IS all about authenticity and transparency with me too and I am beginning to feel that crave and pull again To everything there is a season, right? I hope you don’t stop writing and connecting with your readers because you are truly a beautiful soul! I can’t wait for more mommy content or really, any content from you!! Xxoo

    • southcoaststyleoc
      Author
      June 19, 2017 / 10:48 pm

      Michelle, this means the world to me, I hope you know that!! You have always been such a loyal reader and I can never thank you enough for that. This business can be hard, as you know, but with other women like you who I have been so fortunate to meet in this journey, it also makes it such a special and meaningful group to belong to. You continue to blow my mind, I do not know how you do it all, but your sweet kiddos speak for you in how amazing of a mom you are. I just adore you!

  4. Jigisha
    June 16, 2017 / 10:21 pm

    Hi Amanda, so beautifully and candidly u describe what i felt in my 30s. U have a way to connect with the world directly to the hearts and raw emotions. Your honesty is very heart touching to me.
    Can i tell u something i learned with my 30plus years of various life experiences?
    First of all enjoy the ride without overthinking. This moment will become past next moment. Devoure everything in the moment, relish, feel to the fullest of all emotions. 30s and 40s are the best decades of life, physically, emotionally, socially, familywise, professionally, businesseise and personal growthwise.
    U make very meaningful relations and connections with the world and people around you at this age that would last u a lifetime. These are treasures of your later golden years!
    Additionally taking care of business is also crucial as you are helping your husband build an empire for your family. You are seeing the fruits of our labor done in our 30s & 40s.
    U r good at compartmentalizing and organizing, managing schedules etc.
    I have full faith and trust and take pride in you for all your strengths, efforts, sacrifices and sincere devotion and dedication to your goals, family and to yourself. I m so proud to have you as my daughter. Love u❤️????

    • southcoaststyleoc
      Author
      June 19, 2017 / 10:46 pm

      Mom, this brought me to tears. Your words and support always mean to much to me. I am so lucky to have you and dad as role models. Love you, and as always thank you for supporting our dreams!

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